I went to the hypnotist. I won’t go into much detail apart from to say that it was emotional. Of course I don’t know for sure whether the hypnosis sparked some change in me. I do know that we spent quite a bit of time talking about what I wanted to do before the session and a plan rose out of that conversation. I appear to now be following that plan.
It specifically relates to finding time in my day to write a children’s book I’ve been working on sporadically for a while. I explained that I procrastinate. I am easily distracted by social media, socialising ( I drink a lot of tea with friends) and even (heaven forbid) housework.
When I was being hypnotised I cried. A single solitary tear rolled down my cheek. I could feel it and yet didn’t feel I could, or would, do anything about wiping it away. I don’t know if that is normal. I heard every word she said and it reflected what we had discussed. I listened to how I was going to follow a new set pattern for some of my time away from work.
Our plan was for me to write for a couple of hours and or 1,000-2,000 words a day at the library, after I’d done some exercise. The hypnosis was before the Easter holidays so badly timed and I wondered whether I would manage to do what my brain had agreed to a few weeks later than initiated.
We went away for the weekend and drove home past the library. I genuinely felt an urge to visit it with my laptop. I also have flashes of pure self belief where I tell myself “I am a writer”. It’s a little spooky.
Yesterday I voluntarily walked uphill to the library, wrote 1,500 words then walked home. Today I walked the other direction (the first library was shut and even that didn’t put me off), wrote another 1,250 words in a different library then walked back (despite the proximity of a handy bus.
I cannot really know whether the hypnosis has made my brain change my behaviours. I don’t know for certain if I will keep it up.
It was, at the very least, a catalyst to a change and that, frankly, is priceless. I’m further on with my book and feeling positive. What’s not to like?
They say it takes 6 weeks to make a habit – who knows maybe with hypnosis a habit resolves more quickly. I guess I will have to see.